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12.20.09 Missing: One Christmas Spirit

Usually, Christmas is my favorite time of year. I love sending out Christmas cards, buying special gifts for my loved ones, decorating the tree. I love looking at all the Christmas lights as I drive down my street. I love the way lights look in the snow. Usually, I’m bubbling over with Christmas spirit.

I seem to have misplaced my Christmas spirit this year. Has anyone seen it?

We didn’t put up lights on the house this year. We bought new lights to replace old ones, but we just never got around to putting them up. We just never felt like it. Truthfully, I’m glad they aren’t up. Lights on houses always makes me feel like it must be so cheery inside…and we aren’t very cheery this year.

We didn’t put the tree up either. I have so many cute new ornaments, but no tree to put them on. We planned to put it up, but we just were never in the mood. Something about putting up a Christmas tree just felt wrong to me this year. Again, I’m glad we didn’t put the tree up. I think it would just mock me with it’s Christmas spirit, and I would want to punch it.

I did mail out nearly 80 Christmas cards. Usually, I love getting the cards ready. We torture the pups to get their pictures taken, and then I put the card together. I mean, nothing says Christmas spirit like dogs in Santa hats, right? It’s supposed to be fun. Not this year, though. I felt like every card sent came with a special announcement shouting “We’re still not pregnant, but here’s some cute dogs to distract you!”

I’ve tried watching Christmas movies, listening to Christmas music, baking Christmas cookies. I’ve tried it all. And still not a drop of true Christmas spirit. So, I figure I’ll just keep faking it with the hopes it will show up eventually.

I guess we don’t feel much like celebrating this year. Christmas is a time when wishes are supposed to come true, and our one wish is still ungranted. It’s just too hard to be excited about gifts, and cookies, and carols when there is a hole in your heart.

If, however, while you are out and about, you happen to stumble upon a lost Christmas spirit, please send it my way. I really would like it back.

It can be so hard to be cheerful at times like this. Don’t be too hard on yourself because you can’t make the “cheer” come.

Hug.
.-= Michelle´s last blog ..That time I had freaking nosy neighbors (and some loud ones) =-.

*hugs* It has been hard to be cheerful through the holidays. I’ve just tried to take a step back from everything – it’s easier when your on a forced break and that has helped. I hope you find your spirit and some happiness soon.
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I have a lot of trouble getting into the spirit (what does that even mean? Someone help me out) just in a normal year. With Ted working so much, with everything you guys are going though, with the whole Fuck Lemonaid situation I can see how this would be really hard.

It might not be Christmas spirit, but this isn’t a bad substitute. I made it without the pears & had it warm with ice cream. I figure if I can’t feel spirited right now, feeling full of delightful gingerbread cake is still pretty good.

I’ll take small wins where I can get them. =)
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My Christmas spirit hasn’t been what it should this year (less decorations, no cards, no breakfast with Santa, no Glogg party) I have found a few things that have helped is wearing a bright color to work. I have purple tights & blue glittery ones. Seeing people’s happy reactions to my outfit starts to rub off on me and I feel better.
Do you have anything silly/colorful/sparkly to wear that might help?
Wear it and come shopping at my store (I should be in women’s shoes today)

You can always try to substitute the Christmas spirit for your sad feelings! You know, distractions…it would be a good thing!
.-= Alyssa´s last blog ..Lovely Things =-.

It seems so backwards, but the holidays can be such a hard time to stay cheerful — they impose so much stress in the form of unreachable expectations. I hope you’re able to find some warmth, if not cheer. {{Hug}}
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Right there with you this year…
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Sigh, I know what you mean. My house is sans decorations too. I just didn’t feel like it this year, and screw anyone that has something to say about it.

Your christmas card was beautiful (I got mine yesterday) and it totally made me giggle. It was so YOU.

Hang in there. Christmas will be over in another few days and then it’s a brand new year, which i am convinced holds so much awesomeness for you guys i can’t even stand it.

xoxo

Bah humbug.

That’s all I have to say about that.

My christmas attempts have been completely half assed this year. I couldn’t bring myself to send another christmas card with the dog on it. As cute as he is, I would just feel like a total phoney. I will either be 100 percent joining you next Wednesday or jumping up and down with Christmas spirit. I think it will most likely be the former.

I hope next Christmas is MUCH different. Hugs.
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I’m sorry to hear this. I’m a girl who is ALWAYS in the Christmas spirit so it hurts my heart when people aren’t in the spirit (and want to be!). You have so much going on and one big wish that hasn’t gotten answered yet.

But I’ll be on the lookout for some Christmas spirit lying around and send it your way!
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Let’s just get through it this year. Let’s take it one day at a time and soon, in 2010, let’s take a moment to celebrate a new year and new beginnings together. That’s a spirit I can get into – a fresh start kind of spirit.
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*hugs* i’ll keep my eyes peeled for it
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I’ll keep my eyes open for the missing Christmas spirit. I wish I could send a little bit to you. *hugs*
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*Hugs*

Christmas puts a lot of pressure on everyone to be happy and a lot of the time, it probably is faked or forced.

Hopefully, your wish will be granted in 2010!
.-= Jessica´s last blog ..My Recent (And Not-So Recent) Obsessions =-.

This time of year can be so hard…especially if you feel like you have to be cheerful. All I can say is try and focus on the things that make you happy…your husband, dogs, break from work, whatever and then maybe you’ll feel a little better. And 2010 is very close…who knows what might happen next year?!

Hope happiness comes your way very soon:-)
*Hugs*
.-= Jules´s last blog ..Christmas Survey =-.

Totally understandable. There is such a hard line between “Just not feeling it” and “Fake it til you make it”. Maybe putting up a tree would force the spirit? Maybe it would just be in your face. But the pups sure were cut anyway!
.-= Stephanie´s last blog ..Things that are making me happy! =-.

Oh honey!
I am with you. In the aftermath of my break-up, my Christmas spirit seems to be missing too. I think the important thing to remember is that the lights, tree, etc. all don’t really matter in the true meaning of Christmas. I think that you’ll find your “Christmas Spirit” when you least expect it. Even if it’s after Christmas. At least that’s what I keep telling myself. Lol!
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As you know, I’m in the exact same state of mind as you. I’m pretty sure that your Christmas spirit and my Christmas spirit are hanging out somewhere far, far away together. Hope they are enjoying themselves!

And thank you so much for the card. Your doggies are adorable.

Oh sweetie I’m sorry, I know how hard it is when life is sucking to get into the mood. I had several Christmases in a row which were hit by breakups, surgeries, divorces etc. and it’s pretty hard to get into the spirit – one year I just said screw it, and went out on Christmas Eve with my dad to see Sweeney Todd, the most un-festive thing we could find!!

You’ll be in my prayers this Christmas and you both have been for a while, and even if you don’t have the Christmas spirit right now, you’re still surrounded by a spirit of hope and friendship and love, all of which are Christmas Spirit-ish in their own way.

*Hugs*
.-= Emily Jane´s last blog ..“My Real Little Peanut” =-.

I totally hear ya. We have yet to put up a tree, decorations, I don’t even know where my Christmas CD’s are this year. It’s hard to get in the spirit when you have negative things going on. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, I wish there was a magic wand to wave that would make everything better. 2010 brings new possibilities, new beginnings, at least that’s what I keep telling myself…
.-= Steph´s last blog ..The Christmas Movies =-.

I understand how you feel. And of course you shouldn’t force yourself to feel all happy and bubbly or festive when you’re not. Maybe surrounding yourself with close family and friends this holiday will help you get some of it back? It’s nice to be with the closest people

No reason to force it if it isn’t there. I can’t imagine anyone will fault you for not feeling the spirit (and the baby cards irritate me too — and I’m not even hoping to get pregnant! I can’t imagine how they make you feel.)

I know this has been a bad year for you. I hope you do find a little joy in having Ted and your family and friends and that things get cheerier in the coming year.
.-= The Modern Gal´s last blog ..Feeling shiny =-.

I’m in the same boat. We’re not putting up a tree or buying each other gifts (for the second year in a row ). We even opened up the presents my mom sent us early, just to cheer us up a bit. I’m sorry for all the horrible things happening for you and your family this year. Fingers and toes crossed that 2010 is YOUR year!
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I know a lot of people who are having a harder time this year finding their spirit – I’m one of them. Usually, I’m done shopping and wrapping and decorating long before this week ever rolls around. I just couldn’t find any motivation this year.

I hope you have a very happy holiday. Maybe once the day actually gets here, we’ll all have more spirit than we know what to do with.

Hold please, I am sitting very quietly and trying very hard to send you Christmas spirit.

Did you feel that?

A little bit?

Hope so

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