the state that i am in » Big Fat Negative

If you follow me on twitter, you already know that my period started on Thursday night, just hours after my last post. I decided to take Friday off of work to spend the day with Ted and give my heart a little time to heal.

Of course, that couldn’t just be the end of it. Oh no, my body felt like toying with my emotions for a while. I woke up at about 5 a.m. on Friday…to nothing. No more period since the night before. That tiny piece of my heart that was still hopeful reignited, so it was off to the doctor’s office for a pregnancy test.

However, by about noon my cramps were unbearable, and my period was in full swing. I got the phone call from my doctor’s office later in the afternoon for my official test results. Obviously negative.

I’m spending the weekend with Ted…and my friends wine, coffee, and sushi. We start all over again with our next IUI cycle on Monday. And guess what? The next time we go for a turkey basting…it will likely be Thanksgiving or the day after.

Thank you to everyone who has called, e-mailed, texted, or tweeted me. Your words mean so very much to me. I really don’t feel like I could survive this without your support. You are all amazing.

I’m feeling ok today. Sad, but okay, and ready to start the next cycle. If you want to cheer me up a little, there’s still time for your to donate! (Yes, I’m using my infertility to bribe you for donations. Go with it.)

24 Comments so far

Sending you a million little happy thoughts and prayers today.

You and your hubby are quite amazing people who will make amazing parents, but I’m sure you already knew that.

Much love, my dear!

I am so sorry. Hopefully the second IUI cycle will be the charm especially because the turkey basting will be right around Thanksgiving

Big fat negatives effing suck.

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I’m so sorry. I hope the 2nd time is a charm. Mine turkey basting is also likely to be right around Thanksgiving–probably the day before. We can enjoy the long, hellish 2WW together!
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hugs! I agree, maybe the Thanksgiving date will be good luck!

*hugs*

Still keep you in my prayers.
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You two are always in my prayers and just a reminder that I am here for anything you may need! <3 ya!

p.s. I definitely think you need a bedazzled turkey baster now for the holiday!!
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Hi Erin,

Just wanted to pop in to say that although I haven’t blogged in a year, I AM still reading and cheering you on! Big hugs to you — and I’m already sending good thoughts for the next cycle.

xoxo
laurel

I adore you and I’ll be your personal cheerleader for as long as it takes. Sending you oodles of looove.
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Sending more love from California! If I wasn’t so darn far away, I’d definitely be over there to give you an enormous hug.
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Oh Erin! I’m so sorry.
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Thinking of you – I know it’s a tough time for you right now, but you guys are in my thoughts. Sending good vibes your way!

Keep your head up!

The timing of the turkey baser / Thanksgiving combo seems like pretty great luck… And what a fun story to tell if it works too… haha

I’m sorry this time didn’t work…
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You’re in my thoughts! Just know that you’re not alone!

You guys are in my thoughts – I’m so sorry this time didn’t happen.

Please know, that even when at times it’s hard – keep the hope.

If you want, I could share my dear family friends stories with you, who went through so much heartache, and years later have miracles.
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I’m so sorry for the BFN, that sucks. Take care of yourself and enjoy the wine, coffee, and sushi this weekend.
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Bummer dude. It sucks to be in the trying mode for so long…but stay positive. When it’s right it’ll be right. I’m glad you took the day off of work.
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I am so sorry

I will continue to keep praying for it to happen soon!
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Stupid suckfest. Stupid stupid stupid. I’m so sorry darlin.
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So sad for you I can’t imagine the hurt/anger/frustration you must be feeling. I hope Thanksgiving gives that turkey baster some extra oomf next time.
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Lots of prayers for you today!
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Oh, I’m sorry for the disappointment this time. Thinking of you, hope you had a good weekend.

I’m so sorry, maybe it just takes longer time but I’m sure you’ll get a baby soon sending thoughts, prayers, and hugs your way.

I’m a little late posting, but hopefully the next time works so much better. Don’t let this get you down. Enjoy the things like sushi while you can, hehe, ’cause it will happen hun. Keep the faith and hope strong.
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